When I got attacked

Well, not literally.

The Viral Gastroenteritis Intestinal virus randomly attacked me on Saturday. My immune system came tumbling down like Humpty Dumpty who sat on that brick wall. It has been my most painful 5 days experience of my life. During the span of my recovery, I made a couple of new best friends, really, and I think should be nicer to them once in a while. They are my soap, my toilet bowl, my toilet roll, my toilet seat, my toilet flush...basically, everything that is in the toilet is my best friend. Who said you could only have one best friend aye? hah.

This is embarrassing, but I had to even use my baby potty again just because I can't make it in time to the toilet to let all the stinky stuff out. It's amazing how I could still fit the hole. I was vomiting and peeing poop through my butt countless of times after every hour. I even got so tired of washing my own butt. I thought all this will stop after a while (because I thought I was strong and I could go through all this, but I was so wrong) but it didn't. So after two days, my mother took me to a doctor. But that doctor didn't managed to help me either. I went home still very sick. The next day, which is Tuesday, which is also yesterday, my grandparents heard about me and the drove over. *touched* However, their presence scared me. Not physically but verbally because they went on and on about how serious my sickness could be. That I must be admitted to the hospital (for drips. Because I haven been eating. Everything that enters my mouth comes out instantly through my butt or my mouth again). That I have to drink porridge water (that's the worst part for I never took a liking for porridge). My mother saw me freaked out a little so she came in and decided to take me to see another clinic which in long story short saved my life.

Turns out it wasn't food poisoning (which the whole world thought it was), but a viral attack (the long complex scientific name I used above^). He gave some medicines and it helped a whole lot. But I couldn't escape the drinking of porridge water curse. So I had to. Right now, after 5 days, I'm feeling a whole lot better and I'm sitting here telling you what happened to me.

It's funny how God revealed a little bit of himself to me. In my weakest time, he spoke to me. I've realized how prideful and ignorant I have been. How I have been building invisible barriers around me, protecting myself from the world(when I know I'm suppose to get out of my comfort zone and make friends and be the influencer). How bitter I have been. How I've been shortening devo time. How selfish I've been. How I've changed in a way I didn't want myself to. I hated myself for it but I am thankful that He made me realized that so I have another chance to be a better person to fulfill whatever He has in store for me. Today, with the readers as my witness, I oath to see things the way God see things. If I accomplish that, I believe life would look and feel and taste a whole lot better.

Not only that. There were couple of times where I played some Christian songs to soothe my tummy ache and it worked. The words from the songs came so alive me that it scares me to only realize that the words were there only at that time.

"Our God is healer" - Our God; Chris Tomlin 

"Let now the weak say I have strength by the spirit of God" - Saviour King; Hillsong 

"Jesus, beautiful Saviour" - Beautiful Saviour; Planetshakers

"My Jesus, My Saviour" - Shout to the Lord (my all time favourite Children Church's song)

All these pulled me through all the pain and suffering I was going through. It was also through these songs that I've realized how blessed I am to be here although I'm sick. How blessed am I to have perfectly fine working body limbs. How blessed I am to have a roof above my head without working. How blessed I am to have a God who doesn't count my sins. How blessed I am to have parents who love me and would do anything for me. How blessed I am to have a brother that will scold me whenever I have wrong table manners. How blessed I have to have people to call friends. For all these, I thank you Lord, with all my heart. Sometimes I think God has blessed me too much till I reckon that He should start blessing other people.

"You're rich in love and You're slow to anger.

You're name is great and You're heart is kind. 

For all Your goodness I will keep on singing

Ten thousand reasons for my heart to find"

-

1000 Reasons (Bless the Lord) ; Matt Redman 

"Higher than the mountains that I face. 

Stronger than the power of the grave.

Constant through the trial and the change.

One thing remains, 

Your love never fails, never gives up, never runs out me."

-

One thing remains; Jesus Culture. 

Don't be as dumb as me. Don't wait for the moment when you're so sick to realize how great, how wonderful, how amazing, how awesome God is. Please, don't. I would not want you to miss out. 

He loves you, He will always be there by your side and He's waiting for you. 

I'm still in one piece, if you were wondering. :)

Day 16: When I was daydreaming

Today, I just want to let you know that it's never too late to do what you wanted to do or say. It's never too late to apologize to a friend and mend the friendship. It's never too late to be honest with yourself by confessing to the person you like. It's never too late to help your parents with housework or say those three words - I love you - that would mean the whole world to them. It's never too late to dream big and to do everything you can to accomplish it. It's also never too late to change - to be a better person - a better child, sibling or friend. It's never too late to start appreciating the little things around you - food, clothes,  handphones, cars - or the limbs, the pair of eyes and ears that God has generously given to you. It's never too late to discover your talents and be the person God has always wanted you to be. It's never too late to learn from a mistake and start over. It is also never too late to stand up and speak up for what you truly believe in. So, be brave and do what you always wanted to do or say before it's far too late.

Most importantly, it is also never too late to turn around and run back to God's open arms.

I may not know everything but I know one thing - God is always there (for you & me) through thick and thin - and it is my source of strength and perseverance to run the race till the very end. You may or may not be facing hardships now, but always remember that God would not let you go through something you can't bear. Just stick with God, no matter what.

"No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape that you may be able to endure it" - 1 Corinthians 10:13

Two nice things: 

1. Home cooked dinner 
2. Full-bloom dandelions 

"Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me" 

#NowPlaying - One thing remains ; Jesus Culture 

Enjoy the rest of your day! :)

The eleventh month comes knocking

November is here and the holidays have began!

I'm so excited. Somehow I wish that 2013 would come faster to make a solid proof to the world that the world didn't end in 2012. But at the same time, I would really want to freeze time and stay fifteen. This year have been spectacular. Seriously. I have enjoyed myself thoroughly although I had to sit for PMR.

I will be leaving for the city of angels in less than 24 hours time! I'm super-duper-uber excited (though I'm dreading the 15+++ hours flight!)! However, I'm not done packing yet. Typical me. Procrastination really is the thief of time. Well, partly it is also because I don't know what to put into my luggage besides my clothes and underclothes. And I'm pretty lazy to fold my clothes too. Sometimes I think about the 'girl packs her clothes and leaves the house scene' in movies. You know, the girl gets pissed at something and decides to leave scene? Well, in that scene, the girl will just toss her clothes into her suitcase and leave. Maybe I should try that. *laughs* No, I shall be grateful for the opportunity to go overseas and fold my clothes nicely. :)

This means that I will be able to see my oh-so-cute brother in less than a day's time! Woot woot! Although he came back for a visit in June, I miss him dearly. I will also get to see his two newest best friends - Buddy and Sox! Through pictures, I can tell the Buddy and Sox are the most adorable dogs in the world! This will also be my chance to play with my camera's functions!

I can sense that November will be a great month!

***

"Thank you Lord for blessing me so so much more than I deserve!" 

Truly, God has been so good to me. He has given so so much - a loving family and awesome friends. My family may not be perfect, but the concern calls that I get from my dad, the snacks that my mom will secretly buy for me, the waking up to extra blankets wrapped around me, is already a sign that I was born to two loving parents. "No one has the perfect family, but every family loves perfectly" 

God has blessed me with friends that will accompany me for the rest of my life. Words can't describe them. They are just simply awesome! They accept me for who I am - a flawed person, pimple filled face, a person who is pure werid-. They are always there no matter what. They always have their way to make my day brighter with their BGR talks or jokes. They are great! And I'm really thankful to call them my best friends. (': I love them like a love song and I'm gonna miss them like crazy.

Four nice things: 

1. Late night conversations in a dark room.
2. Sleepovers. 
3. Cereals! 
4. Monopoly Deal!

Have a lovely Thursday! 

Hang in there

 via

This week flew by pretty quickly. That means PMR will be over before I know it. Lately, I have been thinking of all the wonderful things I will be doing after I conquer PMR. Right now, I am having a little break and I just finished my History paper in school. We are given a 3 days break before resuming our big test on Monday and I am using some of my break time to blog!

My heart was crushed when I saw the questions given for my BM essay paper on Tuesday. Everything that was asked was not the questions that I have prepared myself to answer. The questions were very unexpected and I felt that I did not write to the standard that I expected myself to. I went home with tears in my heart and they flowed out so freely the minute I entered my room. I was sad, angry and not satisfied.

So, my mind was filled with so many of these unwanted emotions until it was bedtime. But, I didn't sleep straight away. I picked up my devotional book and God's words spoke wonders.

"I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance" - Revelation 2:2 

Wow. That touched my heart almost immediately. I found so much comfort and I am reminded that  I have someone great in control. And what calmed me more was the fact that God knows my flaws and my sins but He still loves me and He loves you too. 

3 more papers to go. I pray that God will give us, Form 3 students, the strength and perseverance to finish PMR well; with no regrets. Hang in there fellow mates! Whatever you're going through today, always know that you have someone great in control!

Three to-dos:

• Customize this blog.   (16 October 2012) 
• Have a movie marathon right after PMR.  (Captain America, The Vow, White Chicks, A Cinderella Story)
• Create twitter &instagram?  (16 October 2012 ~ @jenyeeeah) 

Happy Thursday! (:

First steps

"The journey of a thousand miles starts with the first step." 

Often we know what we want to do in life, but we're just scared to do it; we're scared to take the first step. But, you know what? I say forget about being afraid. Fear is not from the Lord (that's what my mommy always tells me!) and it's true. We only live once. So, don't be afraid to be different. In fact, we are all made differently, so why hide your uniqueness? Be different, good different. Just trust the Lord, take the first step and leave everything to Him. 

Life has been hectic for me. I promise, I'll write to you soon.

Dreaming Dreams

This post is long overdue, but hey, it’s never too late.

It has been weeks since I’ve changed my blog’s header. And for weeks, I have been trying to come up with something to blog about the new header but I failed terribly. However, a few days ago, when I was reading a borrowed ‘Soul Surfer: Rise Above’ devotional book, an idea just hit me hard on the head like a brick.

Dreaming is something I’m fond of doing. Dreaming gives me another chance to face the harsh reality. Dreaming the wildest dreams make me laugh at myself, but hey, that’s what dreams are suppose to do – to make you happy –, right?

It’s never wrong to dream. In fact, “it’s good to have dreams. But we have to put our hope and faith into something that can’t suddenly disappear. We, I included, need a strong foundation to build our dreams and future plans on” – exert from devo book. I dream often. And my dreams can be as big as Cinderella’s castle but have I placed it on the right ground?

I’m sure everyone is familiar with the two builders’ story. One of the men built his house on sand. The other man built his on rocky ground. When the storm came, the house that was built on sand came tumbling down, whereas the other one stood tall and strong. Wouldn’t it be a waste of time and effort if all our dreams come falling down when the storm comes?

So, where then? Where do you and I build our dreams? “Nothing really lasts except God’s love. If you build your hopes and dreams and your life on Him, you’ll always be on solid ground and able to survive life’s challenges.” There you have it. Build your dreams on God – the solid rock.

I desire to get straight As in PMR and my God says, “I can do all things through Him who gives me strength” (Phil 4:13). I guess my desire is valid. I dream of settling down one day and there’s a saying, “A woman’s heart should be hidden in God, that a man must seek Him to find her.” As long as I plant my dreams on the right ground, I don’t have to worry about the storm anymore.

Right here, I just want to say that albeit there are 7billion++ people in the world, God knows each of our heart’s desire and He will grant them as long as we delight ourselves in Him.

So, have you found your rock solid foundation yet?

***

I’m a dreamer who dream dreams with happy endings. But I reckon my biggest dream is to inspire; to be able to influence somebody; to be able to make someone stop and think before doing something; to be able to make someone feel happy and encouraged; to be able to make a difference; to be able to have an effect on a person; to simply just inspire.

Till then,

Keep dreaming. (:
*Oh, before I forget, I dream to fly too. 

Preciously made

One day I will see the beautiful Aurorae. One day.

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Stumbling upon these pictures when I was using Google was definitely soothing for the eyes - especially two small ones. I reckon I was always fond of things that are not on Earth, literally. I am in love with outer space (after knowing more about the universe in Science). It is filled with so much mystery and each time a scientist discovers something, it'll always be something mind-blowing. It'll always be something beyond imaginable. I've always wondered what it'll be like to be floating in space. Maybe it'll be like swimming but instead I'll be swimming in nothing. I have always wished to observe its beauty up close. And maybe my dream of flying will finally be a reality.

I guess my God is like space. Ever mysterious, ever exciting Him is so hard to predict. Sometimes it can be a good thing, sometimes it isn't. It's hard trying to figure God out. But, when you throw you're life to God and let Him take control, you'll be amaze; everything will fall perfectly into place. Albeit it may be tough, at least I know someone great is in control. 

Stars are formed by a cluster of dust. Dust; something humans reckon is dirty and is something humans constantly try to get rid of. However God chose dust as the main ingredient for the formation of stars. God, too, named the stars He placed in the sky. I can't even count the number of stars in the sky, how can I even come up with names to name them?

To Him, nothing is ugly or useless. He uses everyone regardless of their status or family background. He made everything and everyone beautiful. He took the time to name the stars, what else will he not do for you? You were put into so much consideration when you were being created and He made so many finishing touches before announcing you to the world as His end product. You are beautiful. Don't let the world decide what's beautiful; show the world what's beautiful.

I strongly reckon that beauty has to be seen in a different perspective. Don't you think it's boring to look at things in one angle? Well, photographers constantly look for different angles to seize a different beauty of the object. Why don't we try that?

So let's reconsider what beautiful is and not let the media portray that word for us. I'm tired of hearing news about girls sticking their fingers into their throats after every meal. I'm sick of seeing girls cutting themselves just because they think they're not beautiful. Just like the stars in the sky, we were all genuinely made; different thumbprints, dreams and thoughts. Each of us have our own orbit (just like the planets when they make their way around the sun) to take in life. No one can ever take your place because there's only one you.

"Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no alive that is you-er than you" ~ Dr. Suess. 

So, be you. Be true to yourself. 

*Just a quick question: 

How do you know what you want is what God wants (for you) and at the same time is what you really want?

To seek or not to seek perfection?

Many strive to be perfect. But what many don't see is that no matter how hard one tries to be perfect, one will never be perfect. We are, after all, just human beings. So why waste time worrying of what other's think? So what if you make a mistake? Embrace your mistakes and learn from them. We are who we are because of our mistakes. How can you walk if you don't fall first? How will you succeed if you don't know the taste failure? If one really is perfect, one will never have room for improvement. One will never be better. One will stay the same, forever. Therefore,
perfection won't let you go far. 

***

I'm struggling mentally, physically and spiritually. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and this led me to confusion, depression &the lack of motivation to study. I'm confused because I don't know how my future is going to turn out or where I'm going or what I'm going to do. I'm depressed because I'm having doubts - I don't know whether I'll get to the destination that God wants me to go. I can't study because my mind is too caught up with all these and have caused myself unnecessary stress. Plus, the constant countdown reminder I get for trials aren't helping.

I know that God has a blueprint for my life, but I can't help but worry. My future is a blur if you asked me what the future is like to me. Because I can't picture myself being a grown-up or a worker. I just can't. Well maybe, just maybe, it's an indication to not worry so much because God is in control and worrying won't benefit me. Worrying won't add hours to the day. Worrying can't stop what is going to happen. So, I should stop worrying, unnecessarily.

I need a new strategy to study. Any ideas? Somehow, what motivates me to study is to worry. To worry that I might fail at a certain subject. To worry that I can't get into the stream I want next year. So, is worrying a good thing? Maybe worrying a little is good for me. Heh, the irony.

*I hope I'm making sense. :)

Recently, I have been asked to teach in Children's Church along with a few friends of my age. We are paired up with a teacher to work together to explain a lesson to the children. It was pretty intimidating because these teachers have been around for ages (every since I started going for Sunday School) and they are extremely professional... So, long story short, I taught today, for the second time. My first time was last Sunday. :D

It went alright, thanks to the guidance of my "boss". But, that's not my point. I was given an entire outlook of the lesson and I had to read and understand the lesson. After so many years of being a Sunday Schooler, I manage to get a little behind the scene taste of being a teacher. It was not easy - to get the points in your head, to seize the attention of children &to make the lesson interesting. I really salute all Children Church teachers. But, that's not my point too.

The main point of today's Sunday School lesson is The Devil is a Liar. You see, the devil is always out to lie to us, to make us think that we're failures, to stop us from being the person we are created to be. He is out to break &destroy. That's when God comes in. God is truth and we are his most treasured possession. We are uniquely created and He gave each of us different talents, purpose &calling. It's so easy to trust God, because everything He says is so true, so pure &so sincere. Yet, we - I included - still succumb to the lies that the devil says.

Serving in the children's ministry has definitely benefited me a whole lot. I am never too old to be reminded that the devil is the father of all lies for no matter how old I get, the devil will be there, ready to shoot me with lies. The things that are taught in children's church takes the children very far in life.
It's the foundation for the battle - between us and the devil - that we - Christians - face.

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against authorities, against the power of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 
- Ephesians 6:12

I also learnt that I don't have to be perfect to serve. There's nothing I can do that will ever be good or big enough for God for He is just plain great! I don't have to be afraid of making mistakes because I have to make my own mistakes and learn from them, in order to be better.

Not only that, serving in the children ministry is fun. The children's bright and dazzling smile always make my Sundays albeit they can be a little cheeky a memorable one. I just love those cutie pies so so much!

Till then. 

Giving thanks

Our God is so great. 

Today came in the end. Boys were extremely excited for today. Well, basically they got to become Kings on this special day because it’s Brother’s Appreciation Day!  They got to enjoy a variety of food from cookies to cream puffs to nuggets to fried rice. Not only that, they were served the entire day; that means no arranging of tables, no setting up of PA system, no sweeping of floors; it was their day off! They, too, got to enjoy keropok while watching a schedule full of performances by the girls.

I managed to taste whatever that was left of the cookies – the crumbs - and it tasted extremely good! I bet the whole cookie will taste fantastic but apparently it was so good till million of containers filled with cookies were gone in the matter of minutes! No yummy cookies for me this year. :(

I really appreciate  &thank God for every guy in CF after today. A few of us literally ran to the CF room to set up everything and oh-boy it was not an easy task. Just carrying the PA system equipment made us sweat like nobody’s business. Next, was the arranging of tables. Thank God that the tables were made out of plastics! Phew. But, I reckon that the most touching part that some guys actually stayed back to help the girls arrange the tables and keep the equipments although they were so called the ‘boss’ today. :’) All in all, it’s definitely takes a lot of hard work and commitment to get the classroom comfy for weekly CF meetings. Thank you guys! I don’t know how you guys do it every week, but I salute you!

***

My monthly test ended yesterday! Woohoo! Although it’s not something to be ecstatic about – because PMR trials is in two weeks time – but I felt a sense of relieve when monthly test ended. I get to have some rest, but not too much.  PMR is crucial! With time flapping its wings in full speed, October will come soon and I’m freaking out already. No good, no good. :(

Alright time for some happy news. Today is also Carissa’s birthday! So, happy birthday Carissa! I don’t think you’ll ever see this, but I just wanted to let the world know that you’re one of a kind! You’re a girl with a heart of compassion and I’m so very happy to have you as my boss &friend! Keep lovin’ sharks!

Till then.

Guarding one's heart

"Guard your heart more than any treasure, for it is the source of all life"

~ Proverbs 4:23 

'Guarding your heart is not a matter of avoiding the pains in life. It's a matter of keeping your heart tender before God no matter what the circumstances. An unprotected heart becomes callused with each collision with pain. A callused heart becomes hard. A hard heart is too broken for relationship with God or with people. Therefore, guard your heart "for it is the source of all life".' :)

Somehow, it feels like  a new season - a season of love. Everywhere I go, I see them - love birds holding hands; couples sharing a drink -. This is the season where they claim that they are madly in love with each other. The exchange of sweet and mushy text messages that ends with 'I love you'; the way they look into each other's eyes; the way they whisper into each other's ears....

Seeing them make me wonder what it'll be like to be in a relationship and what does it takes to make a relationship last. But, what is love? Well, I guess there's no definite definition for love. This four-letter word is too hard to be explained but, easier to demonstrate or expressed through actions.

I reckon that the greatest love that has been expressed in human history is the love of Jesus. He sacrificed himself for everyone - every single human being on earth. He was destined to be hung on the cross, but before He was hung on the cross, He had to carry His own cross and He - the Almighty God - was beaten so badly. He didn't have to do this. He didn't have to care. But He did. He did all of that out of love. And therefore; my definition of Love is God and God is Love.

How can a relationship last with the absence of God, when God is love? How can we love when we don't have God? We love because He first loved us. A love that is so genuine; a love that can only be found in Him. And I pray real hard that God will continue to fill me with His love so I can love the world through His love. 

Relationships are super-duper-uber complicating therefore, I'm letting God take control! Woohoo! :) 

Until my season of love comes, I will wait. 

I wish I could freeze time.

Two weeks of holidays are not adequate, I reckon. I’m sure all of us are well aware that the clock is ticking away by the seconds at breakneck speed. Why can’t the government prolong the holidays?

Nevertheless, I enjoyed my holidays to the fullest.

I wanted the holidays to come soon not only because I wanted a break from reality and have a movie marathon with my pillow, but the main highlight of my holiday is Camporama.

Camporama is a camp that is organized by an international Christian based uniform body - the Royal Rangers. This camp is a must go for it only happens once in four years - it’s like waiting for the Olympics! – And Camporama is your 4 days 3 nights passport to fun-filled activities.

I was extremely happy when I was told – together with 20 other rangers – that I was going to be arriving the campsite 2 nights earlier to set up the campsite. We all agreed to participate and soon the big day came. After making sure that we’ve got everything that’s needed to keep us alive for the next 6 days, we took off for Kula Kubu Baru, Tanjung Malim.  The campsite is humongous for its built to accommodate and carry out all hand picked NS candidates’ activities.

We worked hard to set up the campsite and we definitely enjoyed every single minute of it with up-beat music blasting through the speakers that were transported from home. We had our very own 'DJ' too. One of our commanders were mimicking a malay accent and he was super hilarious! Our hit song was 'We are young; FUN'. All of us would sing the chorus together whenever it was played. It was super cool! 

On Wednesday, when camp began, the campers started filling the campsite. Wide smiles and grins were present on campers’ faces. They were extremely excited to see what the camp has in stored for them. I, personally, was extremely excited too. Although I went to camp 2 nights earlier, the commanders hid everything really well from us. They kept us in deep suspense. 

The campsite provided many activities for us, such as the flying fox and the repelling activity. Camp sponsors sponsored us the horizontal bungee (my favourite), bumper hamster ball, the sticky wall and many more. All these activities were extreme and they made my blood ran fast. There was this game station where we had to make our way into a ball and play football with the ball. So, we were playing football in a ball. That was insane! 

Of course, one of the main highlights were the night rallies. Worship sessions were the bomb! Campers were so devoted in worshipping the Lord and they were so passionate to know about Him more. It was really touching to see young campers from the age of 9 responding to altar calls and letting God write their destiny. Sometimes, we have to be oblivious to what's happening and just focus on God and we have to be courageous for God. I definitely learned a lot during night rallies and they were certainly enjoyable.

Song and yell sessions were my most memorable thing at camp. Anusha, leader of the Semangat team, made super duper catchy songs and they were extremely fun to sing at. During parades, I could sense all the energy and enthusiasm that was coming from Selangor #7. We were all dancing, all singing and all having a fun time together. That moment was priceless! I often find myself singing Camporama songs in school, at home and even in the bathroom! It's that catchy! I miss camp!

Lastly, many new friendships - they were crazy, insane, fun and most importantly sincere - were made during camp and old friendships were strengthened. I had the opportunity to bond and joke more with my leaders and people from other churches and it felt really osome! I really thank God for making this camp possible. Without Him, nothing is possible!

Although camp ended more than a week ago, I’m still having a Camporama hangover. Now, all I can do is to wait for Camporama 2016. 

I thank Johnny Browns for starting the Royal Rangers ministry in the US. He started all these! Who knew that Royal Rangers will be brought all the way to Malaysia?! It's mind-blowing and we all know who made it possible - our master ranger, Jesus Christ! Rangers taught me how to see life in a different perspective - in God's perspective and Rangers taught me how to be a woman of Christ. I am who I am today because of Rangers. Thank you Lord! 

Together with all the rangers in Malaysia, we're going to strive towards greater things. Greater things are yet to come. 

The flashing of lights in the night sky

I was seated towards the back of the crowd with a flag pole in one hand - my left hand, to be exact - on a ground sheet that was spread out nicely on the tar road under the open sky. It was around 8pm and the sky was pitch black. I was seated with a crowd that was proudly wearing their Royal Ranger's uniform. It was the opening ceremony for the 6th Malaysian Royal Rangers Camporama and all of us fixed our eyes on the commander that was speaking.

My eyelids felt a little heavy from the day's activity so I decided to let my eyes do a little wandering. Soon, I found myself staring into the mountains. Although it was extremely dark, I could see the solid figure of the mountains. They took my breath away when I was admiring them in the morning. It felt like I was walking into a country scene that was being broadcast on a television. You know those country scenes where there were mountains after mountains; I was seeing them right before my eyes. The different hues of greens of the mountains that were in front were darker than the ones that were behind. It seemed as if the shades of green were slowly fading away into the beautiful baby blue sky.

As I was letting my eyes take in whatever that could still be seen in the dark, a sudden silent flash of light appeared out of nowhere. It was fierce at first but as it lingered it became gentle and soft then it slowly faded into the night sky. It made me jumped a little when my eyes' receptors sent this sight to my brain. I quickly said a silent prayer, hoping that it wouldn't pour.

Just when I was about to advert my gaze back to the commander that was speaking, it happened again - the flashing of light. As it faded into the night sky again, the person who was sitting in front of me turned and asked me ''Did you see that?''. I was caught a little off guard when I was asked with the question. But he continued ''The lightning''. I nodded silently. ''I just love them''. And with that, he turned back. I didn't know how to respond. Someone admiring lightnings? He was the first one I knew that admired lightning.

Moments later, lighting appeared in the night sky again. But this time, I didn't jump, instead I actually gave my full attention to it; making sure that I took every single detail that was happening in with my two eyes. And for the first time of my life, I admired it. Turns out, it was beautiful. Many a times, I take lightnings as bad signs and I find them scary. But after that encounter with that lightning, I found myself taking a little liking to lightnings.

You see, God made everything and everyone beautiful, even lightnings - something that would scare little children. Now, I love everything about the sky and everything that happens/appears in the sky. They are so beautiful! :)

Trying my best

 'Your education is your life-guard it well' - Proverbs 4:13

This gave me a boost of encouragement. Thank you Lord!

''Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.'' - Deuteronomy 31:6

This will always be my source of comfort.

''If you do not stand firm in your faith you will not stand at all.'' - Isaiah 7:9

This verse always reminds me that no matter how great worldly things can be, God's word is something that I have to always treasure. Keep me in your prayers! :) 

*Just thought of sharing some scriptures with yal! When I came across these few verses when I was tumblring, I was like 'I have to blog about this!'. And there you go! Another post from yours truly! As you can see, I don't own these pictures! :) 

Till then, 

*Smileeeee. 

A Woman's heart should be hidden in God, that a man must seek Him to find her.

Let the fireworks begin! :)

'For God so Loved the world that He gave His one and only begotten son, that who ever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.'

-John 3:16

Hello there! (:

Happy New Years Eve! Can't believe I'm saying that already. Unbelievable. This year flew by so fast and, and, and, I'm going to be fifteen next year?! No way! I've been living on earth for 1.5 decades, already! That's superb!

Gotten the opportunity to view my class list online and I wasn't very pleased about it. I'm going to be in a class filled with people I don't really know, again. And I don't know what God has in mind for me. Don't get me wrong. I know God has a great plan for me, but I'm just scared. I don't know what to expect. I mean, life is kind of interesting when you don't know what's going to happen next, but its scary at times. But no matter what, I'm gonna have to leave in all to God. *But I may never know, I might have loads of fun too. :)

Can't wait for watch night service tonight at church. Can't wait to see the fireworks. Can't wait :)

I feel reluctant to leave this year (2011) behind. I had such great fun this year. I had much more fun than I expected. God was with me each step of the way. He helped me through the tough trainings for MSSD in Netball; helped my in my studies; helped me grow; everything. He has always been there for Him. He loved me more than I do. He's just so awesome. I love this year and I will miss this year and will always remember this year.

I'll wrap up this post with my favourite verse:

'It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure'

Psalms 18:32

*I can never face this world alone.

Happy New Year 2012! :)

The world is not going to end. . . :)

How He Loves

He loves us so so so much!

He didn't have to die on the cross, but He did it

for you and me.

A day to remember

'Don't tell God how big your problems are, tell your problems how big God is'

11.11.11
Definitely a day to remember. 

Hello you! (:

Today is another pretty pretty day with a pretty pretty date; and today is indeed a day to remember.

If I were to compare today's whether with yesterday's whether, I would prefer yesterday's whether although it was burning hot. Well, we had our inter-class netball and handball competition today (continuation from yesterday) and it rained during the game. So teachers had to put the competition on hold. Which is a pretty sad thing; but somehow it was a good thing too. We ended up chilling in class and we gotten the chance to bond more with one another; which is a good thing. So I guess God made it rain for a reason.

God stopped the rain an hour before school ended. And we managed to continue our competition. We played our best and we got second! Thank God! The girls made me so proud :') I'm gonna miss them so much! They did such a splendid job. I wish today would last longer. We got all our results back too. And everything was quite pleasing to me. Thank God once again!

Today was actually the last day of my Form 2 year. And I'm really gonna miss this year a whole lot. This year has treated me so well. I really thank God for placing me in 2 Cempaka (the best class ever) :) Frankly speaking, when I got to know that I was going to 2 Cempaka this year, I wasn't really happy. I was going to a class filled with people I don't really know. I kept comforting myself by saying it's all part of God's plan, but it didn't really work, I was going to a class filled with people I barely know. :) But turns out, everything went smoothly and it turned out to be the best year I've ever had in my life. The people I met in 2 Cempaka were mind blowing, like seriously. There were a mixture of crazy, smart, weird, funny, cute, pretty and just awesome people. I do cherish the times and moments we had with one another and I will never ever forget them. One day, I'll be sitting on my bench in my little garden outside my house just staring at the stars and thinking about everything that happened this year and laugh.

These people thought me how to just be myself and not care of what others think. That's something I've learnt this year. Just being me. And I really thank them for that. Thank you, 2 Cempaka, for making Year 2011 such an awesome year for me. (:

2 Cempaka, you have been GREAT! (:

I'm so excited to see what God has in store for my future. I realized another thing, if you just throw your life to God and let Him take control, you'll be amazed how mind blowing our God can be. :)

A pretty pretty day with a pretty pretty date. (:

Without Christ, I Am Nothing. (:

Hello and how are you doing? (:

It's the first day of November, already! Time is slipping away real fast! I find myself repeating that line many times. Anyways, today is a pretty pretty day with a pretty pretty date. So, I thought of posting something here on this pretty pretty day.

I didn't realize the date until two hours ago, when I was sitting for my English Test. We're suppose to write the date and I find myself 'wow-ing' all the way when I realized that the date today was 1.11.11. What beautiful combination of numbers aye?

It has been raining every day for more than a week already. Do you know what that means? Next week's inter-class netball competition is going to be very dirty! The field is flooded with water! De-ja-vu. I remember early this year during inter-house netball competition we had to play in such conditions too. I just hope that it would not rain during inter-class netball competition!

#Picture story.

It's a fact. 'Without Christ, I Am Nothing'. I really cannot imagine my life without Christ. God has been so so real to me and He has always been there for me. Whenever I need him, he's always there by my side. He's always there to love and care for me. He's always there. Although I'm not perfect; although I'm a sinner, He still loves me so so much. God's love is definitely something worth bragging about. He died, willingly on the cross for you and me. Would you sacrifice yourself for a stranger, someone who despise you? I don't think I would sacrifice myself for a stranger, but Christ did. :)

Nothing is impossible when you have Christ by your side. ;) Don't tell God how big your troubles are, tell your troubles how big God is! (:

Two more days til the end of Finals! *can't wait.

Till then,

Love you heaps.

Fall afresh on me

'It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect'
-Psalms 18:32
I fell head over heels the minute I read this verse.
It's just so beautiful :')

O Lord, thank you for everything that you've done for me.
Thank you for all the things that you've blessed me with.
Thank you for placing such wonderful people around me.
Thank you for everything.
:)

Taking a deep breath

'May I never miss a sunset or a rainbow because I'm looking down'
- Sara June Parker

Here's something that's in my heart and something that I would like to share with you.

It was definitely past my bed time. I was seated in the living room, Facebook-ing as usual, with my mommy in the picture. As we were about to lock up the house and prepare ourselves for bed, it started to rain.

Somehow, I was so excited and so pumped up. I literally ran out of the house to take a look at what was happening - the rain. I stood at a spot where I was able to enjoy the rain and at the same time manage to keep myself dry. I was observing the rain, feeling the wind blowing directly in my face. It has been awhile since I've experienced/observed a raining scene up close. And I felt good; and I don't know why. I would have literally danced in the rain under the night sky but it was past my bedtime and I didn't want to get myself (and my pajamas) wet.

So I went back into the house.

I started thinking and considering about stuff. My mommy would want me to go to the States to study high school so that I wouldn't have to pay so much if I go for college/university there. I was struck with dilemmas. The high school in US is humongous and the people there are friendly. Not to mention the beautiful landscape and environment. But, I'll be leaving a lot of things behind - my relatives (COUSINS!), my beloved friends, my church, my school and RANGERS! How can I possibly leave Rangers?! It's going to be a very hard decision to make. :( Plus, I'm afraid to go over. Actually, I'm afraid to start anew, afraid to start again, afraid to adapt the whole new environment. I'm afraid. I really need God to let me know where he wants me to go. Do pray for me ya? :)

The future is running towards me; its running real fast.

Soon, I'll be taking my PMR then SPM then I'll start driving then I'll go to college then start working then get married and start a family. Man, I don't want to grow up. Really, I don't want to grow up. I don't really know how to explain myself, but I really don't want to grow up. TEEHEE. I still want to be a little kid for now. :)

'Delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant your heart desires'
Remember me saying something like this 'I'm going to fast Facebook for a month or two or more'? :D Well, my fasting facebook month is arriving. I'll be fasting the entire month of September and 1/2month of October. I'll be fasting until my Finals end. I'll be using the amount of time on Facebook with God and will be studying for my Finals. I might sound like a nerd or something, but I really want to ace and score in my finals! :) Wanna join me in fasting Facebook? :)

Remember to always look up and don't you miss the sunset and the rainbow! (:
Love you truck loads,
:)